Thursday, August 9, 2012

The Highest Highs The Lowest Lows


Sister Mack
MTC July 24, 2012

Dajia hao!

Ok I literally will be leaving this country 2 weeks from today. Is anyone else freaking out??? Or as we say in Chinese: shenme dong dong? (What thing?) Hahaha.

Alright. I've had a lot of incredibly awesome experiences this week but I will probably only get to share a couple of them with you. Let's dive right in....

On Wednesday night we had a really unique opportunity. Every Wednesday when the new missionaries come in they get to teach 3 investigators in big groups. It's kind of crazy and intimidating but also really humbling and cool. For each investigator, they have missionaries who have been here for a while come in to start the lesson. Well it just so happens that our teachers recommended me and my companion to be those missionaries that go in and start the lesson. It was a little intimidating but we were so excited to do it. We had a workshop for it on Monday night and basically just talked the whole time about how important it is to love people and to really care about them and listening to what they are saying . . .  it was so uplifting. So on Wednesday we had an especially sweet experience with our second investigator. We later found out that he's actually a member but the things that transpired in the 8 minutes we spent with him were really really powerful. When he first let us in to the room he couldn't stop talking about how young and cute we were and how we couldn't possibly be missionaries because we were not 40 or 50 but in fact looked like we were 15! He told us his friend told him he'd be sending 2 cute sister missionaries to come and sing for him. We laughed at that one and brushed it off at first. We even joked about how maybe he could sing for us. He was very persistent though. We finally sat down in his "living room" and said we had a great message to share with him and he said "Great, I would love to hear it if you sing for me first." At this point Jin JieMei and I realized that we probably weren't going to get anywhere if we didn't comply with his wish. With about 50 new missionaries watching us and both of us speaking into microphones I panicked for a moment. Thankfully Jin JieMei was thinking clearly and said we would be happy to sing but we would rather have our mics turned off and have all the missionaries sing with us. For some reason I felt like we should sing "I Am a Child of God". I later found out that that was what Jin JieMei felt impressed to sing too. It was such a clear and obvious choice and I know that it was a prompting from the Spirit. We all sang the first verse together and I smiled the whole time just cause I couldn't help but laugh a little at my situation and at the same time just felt so happy. He looked at us very intently with his bright little eyes and was grinning the whole time.

When it was over he thanked us so sincerely. He then proceeded to explain what a wonderful feeling was inside him as we sang. He said he felt so happy and he was grateful because he felt like it really helped him to know who we were. Even though he didn't remember all the lyrics, he said he was very impressed by what he felt. Jin JieMei, once again totally on the ball, told him we'd be happy to write down the words for him. My heart was so full of love for this man I had only known for 5 minutes. I was so happy and absorbed in the moment and suddenly we were being cut off by the workshop leader who was turning the time over to the new missionaries!! We sat in the back of the room and wrote out the lyrics of the first verse of "I Am a Child of God", our testimonies, and a couple of scriptures we felt impressed to share that would strengthen him and help him with his concerns. We gave it to him afterwards and he reiterated the great feelings he felt while we sang and graciously praised our voices which embarrassed us both. Then he said that he knows that singing like that, in a sense bearing our testimonies through music, will really resonate with Asian people (he is from Japan) and that we should look for opportunities to do so when we get to Taiwan.

I know he felt the Spirit of God. I know even though all 3 of us are members of the Church, that experience helped us all come closer to Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ.

I also know that it wasn't a coincidence that I lost my voice the next day instead of on Wednesday. All things happen for a reason. May I be brave and wise enough to always heed the promptings of the Spirit and to always do good as I sing out the good news of the gospel to the people of Taiwan!

On Saturday in the TRC we had a very interesting experience which I will endeavor to describe in about 6 minutes. We had a really awesome lesson plan, I have to say it. But unfortunately it was a lesson plan that really only would have worked had we taught a member of the Church cause it was very much a discussion based in their experiences with the gospel. Well this week at the TRC we had 3 actual investigators come in as volunteers! And our teacher assigned one of them to us!!! I was really excited at first and eager to throw myself into a more realistic situation than what I have been used to, but things quickly went further south than I would have liked. I don't know what it was, but we just couldn't get our point across. We were trying to teach our investigator, a Chinese woman, about how we can receive revelation through reading the Book of Mormon. Jin JieMei and I both shared really personal experiences and I almost started crying cause I could feel the Spirit so strongly, but it just wasn't there for this woman. I felt like we hadn't really succeeded and I'm sorry to admit that I was a whiney little pengke (punk) afterwards. But Heavenly Father didn't let me stay that way for long! The rest of that day I had a lot of really strengthening experiences and it mostly came from my interactions with other people. An Elder in my district gave us a little pep talk, and one of our teachers showed us a paragraph in Preach My Gospel that said no effort in missionary work goes wasted. If we sincerely seek to have positive interactions with people, and do our best to share our message and witness, then we have done something good. I also had a really great talk with two of the new sisters. One of them was feeling kind of down and suddenly I was speaking all these encouraging words that definitely weren't coming from me. I didn't know how much they touched her until a few days later when she showed me she wrote them down.

I hate it when I let the hard things about missionary work get to me and I let myself temporarily forget my purpose. But I feel that God is all around me--in the scriptures and in His children who bless me and love me and lift me up each day.  Missionary work is kind of a roller coaster ride because you can experience the highest highs and the lowest lows in the same day. I'm trying really hard this week to focus on my faith in Jesus Christ and to let that guide me through each experience. I don't ever want to forget why I am here. I am here to spread the joyous news of the gospel to God's children, to love them and lift them and befriend them. What a tremendous honor and blessing.

I love you all. Keep smiling and pressing forward in faith. I pray for you every day.
Love
Ke JieMei



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